This project was made in an attempt to capture the feeling of tension.
There is a blurriness between wanting to leave, wanting to stay, being in love and feeling hate. I often explore anxiety and loneliness in my work, but this was a new frontier to explore with Kaiman something she was going through at the time (as well as myself in a different sense). She was moving away, I was staying as I always stay. Perhaps I am ready for change, but the tension when you are about to make a push towards a choice can be hard to put a finger on.
That was the feeling I wanted to capture, a manic happiness and a serene sense that feeling those emotions reminds you that you are indeed alive.
Photographer: Katy Shayne, www.katyshayne.com
Model: Kaiman Kazazian, www.kaimankazazian.tumblr.com